and the beginning of yet another blog.

i decided that i would get a blog that's public.
i do enjoy blogging, i really do.

it makes me feel happy somehow.
i think its an outlet.
mmmm, yes it is, everytime i blog something i like, i get to call a friend (usually constance) and go: "oei go read my blog now lehhhh. prease prease prease. its very funny one! because its making fun of you."

ahhh, the little joys of living eh?

my 1st blog address was out-damned-spot.blogspot.com

let me let you in on a secret which technically wouldn't be a secret anymore if i gave everyone this blog address and they read this so i am contradicting myself. shikes, whatever.

this word was actually taken from some beauty billboard with a hugeass zit zoomed in and the extremely HUGE tagline going "OUT DAMNED SPOT!"

i loved that word. at least i used to think it in many other forms whenever i spotted a new zit in the morning when i was 16/17.
"wah lau, shit you pimple, go away."
"NEW ONE, DIE YOU ASS. DIE" (technically when i stare into the mirror & do that, it was as if i was cursing myself. my mom actually thought i had some identity/inferiority issues when that morning ritual took place but of course i assured her that i was merely cursing the red spot that rested atop of whereever it was resting that morning. she didn't seem convinced though & i wonder why. i am very sane, am i not? or am i not? no, you don't have to answer this question constance neo although i can already imagine you with your answer forming on your lips as you read this from your desktop in the middle of the night.)

oh no, i deviated.

okok, so yes, i named my first blog such was because that 3 words captured the essence of what i wanted so much to say in the early mornings before school when a new zit popped out.

my second blog address was mandarin-motif.blogspot.com

i was in the "lets play with pretty words & a make pretty name for my blog address."
i thought LOOOOOOONGGG and HAAAAAAAAAAAAARDDDDDD and came up with this.
i admit i still like it best, its even nicer and prettier than the one i have now.
it sounds sophisticated and you-know-what-i-mean-lah-hor.

its the blog that i really blogged at. (like nearly every freaken day can.)


well, with this blog don't expect much.
last night whilst we were resting under some random HDB void deck, jing asked why i didn't blog anymore or why i kept it private.

rui answered "well, people who know us and actually care will really know whats going on in our lives, they don't need our blogs to find out so it doesn't matter if we kept out blogs private or public."
i absolutely agree wholeheartedly.

so this isn't a blog where you'd be updated about whats been going on or who have i been seeing.
but its really a record of sorts, things i write about that i wouldn't mind letting my 15 year old grandkid read like 40 years down the road without worrying if it might contain expletives or something i wouldn't want them to read.

it is my opinion for this time regardless of whether it makes sense or that it is right or not.
it is what i feel like saying at this point of time.

thus my blog address epitomises it pretty well eh?
very singaporean i feel. haha.

"what-say-me.blogspot.com"

don't expect to be blown away. just expect me. :)

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