for you know who you are

i was just randomly blogsurfing when i chanced upon this blogger who was writing about her tragic heartbreak.
how she couldn't down a morsel of food without feeling like she wants to throw up.
how she had to fight back her tears whenever she chanced upon something familiar that led to her remembering.
i think, it isn't the loss of the person that "kills" you but rather, the fond memories.
alot of times, we end up remembering the best of that person while forgetting the pain, hurt & anger that they've put us through.

i somehow feel we can live without that person, whoever he/she may be but its just that we CHOOSE not to.
before, we were doing pretty much fine weren't we?
its all about just getting back into the groove of our "previous" life.

you wonder why the worst of bouts of heartbreak seem to hit you when you're at your lowest.
its not that, its just that we have a tendency to THINK about things when we feel low because we want to feel the support of someone close to us, to know that someone actually cares or at least, bothers. the ironic thing is EVEN if you have someone, that someone might not necessarily actually fill that need.
And the funny thing is that we tend to forget about Him when we're at our saddest when the first person we should run to is Him because, what man cannot do, God always does.


like i said for the millionth time, it gets easier with time, dahling. =)

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